Dear God(s)
SatisfiedThursday I start being ill - think it's just allergies, continue on.. Develops stomache-bug like systems... Now I'm on damn Nexium again. The what-ever-the-hell is wrong comes with a weird side-effect: My legs act weird whenever it flares up.
Around 4:30 am on Saturday my kneecaps lurch (as my stomach did) while I was walking down my hallway. Legs bend behind me, I fall forward as I fall down - about a foot... As my legs were bent, the right ankle/foot angle was sort of like / but a more extreme angle.. More like a rotated L.. When I landed, it smack-dabbed it flat.. Then I skidded. Cause I'm no feather-weight (Currently 161, or so), and velocity does that.
So. Bruises, basically carpet burn... Strain/sprain likely.. Been x-rayed for a hair-line fracture... And my faith in humanity has been restored.
Time before last when I required an x-ray, it'd been 11 days since the last day of my period. The Cook's hospital was going to try and -force- me to take a pregnancy test, or leave. We got out of that one, not without being seriously pissed off.
This time, the lady was pretty awesome (We got to chatting waiting for my mom to register me, and while we were doing xrays).. Though of course, is required to ask the obvious.. Last period start/end.. blahblahblah.. Looks kind of pained to have to ask, puts her hands together, and looks at me pleadingly.
"Is there ANY chance at ALL you could be pregnant."
-Look straight at her- "Nope. None."
"Could you tell me why?"
"One being that I'm gay, two being that I'm not sexually active." -thinking "ohcrap, shouldn't have said that"-
"Alright then. Just sign this piece of paper saying that I asked, you answered, and I'm going to put a lead shield over you, and we're good to go."
She totally didn't care.
That's great.'course it wasn't fair of me to use that bad event as a en-bitterment towards X-rays, but damnit that pissed me off. I wanted to -scream- "I'm GAY" in their faces so I could get my damn xrays, heh.
It also felt real liberating. That's the first non-family non-friend I'd trust with my life that I've gone "I'm gay" to. Felt grand.
'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side
I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
Daniel Bedingfield - If You're Not The One
Now, maybe baby, maybe baby
I found someone
To take away the heartache
To take away the loneliness
Cher - Found Someone
Ever close your eyes
ever stop and listen
ever feel alive
and you've nothing missing
you don't need a reason
let the day go on and on
Enya - Wild Child
Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise.
Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to be free
Sarah McLachlan - Blackbird
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on the plus side, good to know your faith in humanity has been restored... though I tend to find crises of faith in that regards are a fairly regular occurence for me
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In order to form an immaculate member of a flock of sheep one must, above all, be a sheep
~Albert Einstein
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"If your success is not on your own terms, if it looks good to the world but does not feel good in your heart, it is not success at all."
Anna Quindlen (1953- )
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I reserve the right to contradict myself
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(i) don’t care where we go//(i) don’t care what we do//(i) don’t care pretty baby//Just take me with u
2 words falling between the drops...//holding someone is truly believing there's joy in repetition.
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"Am I GAY? I'm ECSTATIC!"
I am Taisie, hear me.. fall up the flight of stairs.
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"Am I GAY? I'm ECSTATIC!"
I am Taisie, hear me.. fall up the flight of stairs.
And, how's life swingin' for YOU?
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"Am I GAY? I'm ECSTATIC!"
I am Taisie, hear me.. fall up the flight of stairs.
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"Am I GAY? I'm ECSTATIC!"
I am Taisie, hear me.. fall up the flight of stairs.
Life is interesting I suppose. I've gotten totally sucked into AO again, not least because Mack is back (in black? well, not really..). He and I have hammered out the outline of the rest of Mack & Thorn's story. It's ... odd. But awesome. And I've decided that I'm much more a writer/storyteller/illustrator than an artist. Perhaps splitting hairs, but the definition seems to be important to me, so .. there ya go. The rp department actually has members now! And is plotting stuff! Everyone be afraid!
Um ... other news? Nuthin really. I'm not enjoying knowing certain parts of my "family" (I say it in quotes because I really don't feel related to them, no matter how much genetic material I share with one in particular). Which kinda sucks. But I'm over it. I'm really good at ignoring people. *lol*
I have a ton of writing to do, actually. Rp's and stories that I said I'd write. And stuff. And things. I'm losing coherence
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