It totally DOESN'T pay to do the math in this case. Nor is it really good for me..

You see.. I've been thinking about begging my parents to let me pull out of high-school and go back to oh.. Jr High or something. My theory: I'd missed out on a lot of lessons that covered the basics of.. well.. every thing. Basic math things, basic grammar skills, what is this, this is that, you know, the whole bit. 2 years of study, review, and repeat. Two IMPORTANT years. Yes, I skipped 4th to go to 5th. Okay, not that big a difference between the two. However, going from 6th grade into a high-school course is a HUGE hop... That's like trying to teach someone multiplication before they know how to add. You just don't do that. It makes it VERY hard. On the student AND you. Not to mention, it's a completly retarded idea to think you can teach someone to multiply 2x4 before they even know what 2 and 4 represent, let alone how much that 2+2=4, and 2+2+2=6.. It's just dumb.

So I was talking it out (okay venting) with some friends (You know who you are, and I thank you for letting me vent), and decided something. For starters, this course I'm in covers all subjects in books that go from 9th grade level, to 12th grade level. Simple enough. When I complete all of a book/all of the books of a subject, I get a credit. This is a credit based course. What "grade" you are in, is dependant upon how many credits you have. This being the college prep course they have available, there's 16. 13 pre-selected, and then you are free to choose 3 credits worth of electives (Some of them only count as a half credit). A'ight, s'all good. The course is designed that you do 1 exam a week. Doesn't sound that hard, or it didn't untill I actually tried doing this. Anyways, my point is, on May 14th, I will officially have been a student of this course for 2 years. On June 1st, I would've sent my first exam out (It took a bit for me to get the books, and a bit longer to actually start.. *cough*). Wewt, that's 2 years since May 14 2004 when I got admitted to the school. 2 years, 52 weeks each. 52+52=104. Or, better yet, 52*2=104. That simple. At the same token, 16/4=4. 16/8=2. I should have 8 credits soon. I have... 2. I thought I had 4, but they were, unfortunatly, half-credits because I'd only gotten 1 book out of 2 books, in two subjects, done.

So I have roughly 2-4 credits, if you tally up all my credits and my half-done subjects. Barely half of what needs to have been done in 2 years of this 4 year course.

The way this is possible:

52 weeks in a year. 52 exams a year, if you follow the course's guide. 2 years, that's 104 weeks. 104 exams.

I have a whopping.... 25 exams done. It does not always pay to do the math



How'd I let this happen!?!?!? Of course, my mother, ever so supportive, only has this to say: You were lazy, you didn't care, and you piddled. (Southern term for "You played around and slacked off, before you got the work done.") Thanks mum, REALLLLLLLY helpful.

I'm trying to understand where I went wrong.. and I see the major part of it. I spent roughly 90 days worth of time actually ONLINE on just ONE of my Anarchy Online characters. Plus the time spent on AORC, that'll prolly total up to 92 days. 92*24=2208 hours. And roughly 13-14 weeks. On one character. I'm afraid to add what I've got on all my OTHER characters to that, though I probably will at a later time. 2208 hours!!! >_< Not to mention the time I spent not even in AO/RC, and just on messengers or even just on forums.

There's the time sink I love, my DJing family, as well. Then all the hours I spend just doing absolutly nothing but listen to music. Hours I spend sketching, sleeping, riding in the car, everything. Not including my hours I spend sleeping, that's a hella lot of time I could've been studying, but didn't. Not including the year I played AO, that's still a year that I didn't really keep up my school. How THAT happened, I know too. I was dragged out to alot of home-school group activities and the like. Most of them for my little brothers (Events targeted at children under the age of 9) and I rarely got a day in which I wasn't out doing one thing or another.

*sighs* It really doesn't pay to do the math...

104-25=79... 79 exams... Seventy. Nine. Frikin. Exams.

*sighs*

So.. current game plan:

Make a schedule. As in, sit down, and write out for a few weeks where I'm going, when, for how long, how long it takes to get there, how long it'll take to get back. Times I may/may not be babysitting, x hours of studying, x hours of sleeping. Go to bed at x, get a alarm clock and wake up at x.. The whole sha-bang.

Pay attention to my diet. Normally, I just eat whatever my mother makes and roll with it. Normally. Time to keep a log of what I eat, when. Some foods have appearently been proven to have a insomnia reaction. Besides the obvious things like caffiene and the like.

Stop bouncing around on my subjects. My father tells me that since I have troubles focusing on one subject, to just do a little on this, and a little on that, and work on this that and the other. Well that's been realllllllll successful.. I like how my friend put it. "Stop bouncing around in your subjects. You're too damn intelligent to allow confusion to set in. Pick one, start on it, finish it and then work on the next one. This isn't a matter of just being overwhelmed. You're overwhelming yourself. Which happens, you haven't learned time management skills." Fits pretty good, I think. (Except the intelligent part, but I wasn't about to argue that point. We've been doing that arguement for a llllooooonnnnnggg time. It hasn't gone anywhere though)

Spend less time just doing... nothing.

So, organize my life. Then everything else will start to roll better. I'll be more effective (hopefully?), and the exams will happen more frequently (hopefully).

But honestly.. Sometimes it just doesn't pay to do the math. It just, really doesn't.

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